Do you know about that time when you feel that your whole world came crashing down and someone comes and says "better times, there's something for you later, something wonderful, you'll see" and you just want to tell to shut up, that they leave, not knows what he's talking and that is not true, that there is no good, it's all a crap? It turns out that when you forget to believe in you there's someone else it will not always get up and help once again.
My world has come down a few times and has always appeared that voice full of hope but, above all, someone who believes in me and the deserved opportunity for a bright future, which simply means "I still happy no matter what. "In some mysterious way always manage to reconstruct my world but each time believing with absolute firmness that each new cycle of destruction and rebuilding me one step closer to my chance to be happy, to receive that" something wonderful " store for me.
These days have been filled with many disappointments, difficult tests, problems still not even finished but also solve a lot of growth. There are a couple of situations from about 5 years ago I always knew that a day I would play and did not want to face that day came, I could not face it, came almost together, one after the other almost simultaneously and I thought that I would disrupt the world I was just pouring blessings and closing doors :-) no tears, no resentment, even a small portion of rage.
guess that's why tonight to think about the past, present and future, I feel different, I feel I can more clearly see the picture and I feel I'm ready and I deserve my time to shine and to receive what is rightfully me "divine" "mystical" or whatever you may call it.
There are still too rooted emotions that I definitely one day but leave. There are people I could not let go yet, remain steadfast in my affections, but one day will be just memories, I know, but I will not force anything, I will continue as usual letting everything flow. So many times I hated to hear that statement "let it flow" but I can only thank the person who hurt me in due time to say them and now I recognize in his words a great lesson that it was hard to learn.
Completing the reconstruction of my world, whether to come down again later! that after all that's part of my life and I love to live life with all his experience and going through each one of the ranges of emotions that exist and I am and not change or diminish the intensity and passion with which I live and sometimes suffer everyday.